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A horrible start

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Friday, February 7th, 2025 I woke up, ready for my virtual consultation with the fertility specialist. However, after following my telehealth link, I waited anxiously for the doctor to come online. I waited... and waited some more. Frustratingly, the doctor didn’t join. I called the office, and we discovered that something had been scheduled wrong—my appointment wasn’t showing up. I had waited several weeks for this appointment! It was how I coped with my last disappointment of still not being pregnant. An instant wave of grief resurfaced. Now that we had decided to move forward, I couldn’t wait any longer. This was the right time, and I didn’t want a missed appointment to delay things. My voice shook as I expressed my feelings to the receptionist with as much patience as I could manage. "I’ve waited so long. Please. Please get me in." To my great relief and gratitude, the doctor was kind enough to do our appointment during his lunch break. What a gem! I could tel...

When you want to make God laugh...

I sat in the front row of my new classroom. As we did every year, The teacher asked us to introduce ourselves. When I stood up, I grinned, trying to pretend I wasn't anxious at all, and started at the peers in my class.  "So, hi…I am Pumba…ha ha. Just kidding. That was so last year. I'm just Cynthia. I have a big family. Three brothers and three sisters." I'm sure my introduction went something like that… (minus the adorable confidence and spunky personality)  The next girl who replaced me in front of the class introduced herself. “Hi, I'm Morgan and I'm an only child,” Wow, that's sad, I thought, judging the information that she had just delivered. Why would anyone choose to have only one kid? How boring! What would I do without my siblings? Yeah, I hate them sometimes, but they are my people. My favorite people. My built-in best friends.  Poor Morgan. I'm going to have lots of kids when I grow up.  Then…I grew up.  *** It didn't take me long ...